Sunday, December 03, 2006
Doodles
i was already dressed, getting ready to go out, when mummy said, "kakak, you dont go out today. mummy want to talk to you."
and i said, "huh?! mummy, my friends already bought me the ticket! it's $10! im not gonna waste their money! and my friends are performing and im already late!"
and she said, " you can watch them perform another time. i dont want you to go out today. you better sit at home eh kakak."
and i said, "ergh! the last time i went out with my friends was last wednesday! dont you think it's time for me to go out?"
and she said, "dont be rude and listen to mummy. stay at home. go to your room now."
and that's what i've been doing since 12.30pm.
yup. i locked myself in the room.
and i didnt come out.
not even to eat.
i dont care.
im not even hungry anyway.
it's past 7.30pm now.
ergh. i feel so crappy.
i've been waiting for today and guess what?
i cant go out. taik uh.
i feel sorry for myself.
mum said she gives me freedom.
is this what she calls freedom? heh.
so i spent the day imagining what it's like at gas haus.
i faced the wall.
and i talked to myself.
i pissed myself off.
i cried, and then i fell asleep.
where are you when i need you, fie?
fifi's in penang.
ergh. great. i feel like shit.
great granny slept over last night.
she knocked the door and i let her in.
then she sat beside me and hugged me.
she said,"nini, dah, jangan merajok. takmo nangis lagi. mummy kau tu memang. nanti nenek pukol dier. memang jahat dier, tak nak kasi nini kluar. mari makan, nanti masok angin."
aww, i love my great granny.
but still, i refused to eat.
im not even hungry lar.
ergh. ergh. ergh.
i wanna go out lar.
i've been staying at home for too long.
fifi where are you?
even fazli told me that he misses you.
ergh. like i miss you more.
ergh. fie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
till then,
toodles. :)
*ps. i feel like shit lar. let's go out. make me happy.
"Sweet is the dream, divinely sweet, when absent souls in fancy meet."
