Sunday, April 08, 2007
Doodles
hello loves.
mummy dearest has made a decision.
no more cable tv and internet connection.
oh well.
i guess it's for my own good.
it's the o's this year.
sigh.
i miss disney channel.
and mtv. and discovery travel & living.
star world, too.
on friday, we celebrated the oh-so-loved-by-me-hudaa's birthday.
im glad that she's happy wih the surprise mr.highguy. (:
well yesterday i went to sentosa with my family.
i wanted to watch a walk to remember on channel 5 at 7.30pm.
but damn it i didnt get to watch it cos of my star karat aunts and families.
but it was all fun though, despite the long wait.
mummy promised me that she'll find the dvd for me.
she said she feels bad.
well, good. so then i can watch it over and over again and then cry to myself.
i feel tired these days.
terribly exhausted.
mummy says i don't look happy and excited and noisy anymore.
she said that im gloomy.
well, i feel like it.
it feels like there's a dark cloud glooming over me.
and it's following me wherever i go.
and it makes the floodgates open, if you know what i mean.
sometimes i feel sorry for myself.
i feel like i just wanna hide myself away from the world.
away from the monsters in my dreams that seem to be seeking me.
away from everything. absolutely everything.
i just wish for you to be happy.
"Sweet is the dream, divinely sweet, when absent souls in fancy meet."
