my confessions.

2009-09-27T23:28:00.004+08:00

Hello loves. :)

Okay.

I'm here now:

2009-09-03T21:36:00.003+08:00

When I have a tummy ache, mummy will heal it. :)
When I was in the train earlier, I saw a little girl in a stroller.
She is so adorable.
She had only two bottom teeth.
Her eyes were as round as marbles.
Her fingers were tiny.
Her arm was wrapped around a teddy bear.
It reminded me of teddy.
She hugged her teddy tight and put two of her fingers into her mouth and fell asleep.
She looked so fragile.
I cant help but look at her and smile.
One of the most wonderful creations in the world. :)

2009-08-25T22:38:00.002+08:00

It's 16 more days to mummy, Haikal and Nusrah's birthday!
I've made mummy's card already but i havent gotten her a present yet.
Her card is red and purple!
I have in mind what to give to Haikal but i'm not telling cos Haikal, i know you're reading this!
So you gotta wait!
It's the fourth day of the fasting month and alhamdulillah, it's going well.
The whole clan buka-ed at my house during the weekends and it was fun!
Little Ilhan is so adorable.
Surprisingly, i do not have that many cravings like i usually do.
That's good, don't you think.
I bumped into Victoria in the lift today and i think that her hairstyle is so cute!
3D design was great and time flew by exceptionally quick today.
The weather was scorching hot and all i wanted to do was get home and take a long cold bath.
I miss having a bathtub in the bathroom. :(
Mummy's having her teachers' day dinner and dance this saturday and the theme is masquerade!
These things gets me excited eventhough im not the one who's going.
Mummy's busy putting sequins on her mask.
Masquerade reminds me of Hilary Duff in A Cinderella Story and Selena Gomez in Another Cinderella Story.
I love the dresses and masks!
I wish i could go to one.
I've been falling asleep quite early these past few days.
Maybe it's the cool weather.
Or maybe it's the new bedsheet that mummy got for me.
It is really comfy.
Maybe i should turn in now.
Goodnight loves.
Till then,
take care. :)

2009-08-17T13:43:00.009+08:00

I think Nichkhun is yummy like the watermelon. ;)
I bumped into Fadilah today and i'm happy!
It's already the fifth week and it's the first time i met her in school!
It's tuesday tomorrow and i like it cos there's colin's class!
I like 3D design.
It's so cool that it makes me want to design a castle!
I had ice-cream with kinder bueno today and it made me very happy.
Today is such a long day.
I feel really tired.
I don't know why but i think that my appetite is changing and it feels weird.
Till then, take care loves. :)

2009-08-16T15:27:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum. (:
I love my long hair!
It's almost the fifth week of school now.
School has been pretty awesome.
I can't wait for the fasting month!
Natasha just turned 15 three days ago.
We watched G.I. Joe: The Rise of Cobra and it was great!
Channing Tatum is hot.
Up is cute.
I can't wait to watch The Proposal!
I miss my boyfriend terribly.
Haikal, i shall wait for you till you finish your exams and then we can go out okay. (:
I'm going swimming now.
Till then, take care loves. (:

2009-06-20T22:43:00.001+08:00

I bought a bag and a belt and a bracelet today!
Yay yay yay!
Haikal suhaimi looks very cute with his new haircut. :)
Im working tomorrow and i find it a drag cos sunday is boring.
On the bright side, i'm not working on monday and tuesday!
We sang for daddy our own version of a father's day song.
Wehehe.
I find it funny.
We bumped into nurul and waheeda today and oh boy do i miss her!
I can't wait for the school term.
Till then, take care loves. :)

2009-06-19T00:19:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum. :)
Hello loves.
It's been a loooooooong time.
Wehehe.
I have been busy working and having fun.
It's nearing the weekends!
I wanna go shopping tomorrow!
Yay yay yay!
I see the 'SALE' banners being put up.
I like that. ;)

2009-05-26T22:59:00.004+08:00

It was the first day of work today!

My aunt got me a job as a health screener at kk hospital.

What an experience i had.

I enjoy taking children's temperature.

The look on their faces, a mix of fear and excitement.

A few of them were really excited.

Adorable.

After 12 hours of working, i said goodbye to sally melly belly bombelly jelly bean.

I'll be working with her again on friday.

Bawak bekal okay!

Remember our shopping list, love.

That yellow vespa is ;) isn't it.

Oh no.

I miss haikal suhaimi like afvnfdbhdhbsridixlfrs. :(

2009-05-24T20:41:00.003+08:00

The weekends was awesome.

There was khairul and firhan's birthday celebration, Karya at yew tee cc and a day out wih my family to get ice-cream.

I wish to elaborate, but i no longer have the mood to do so.

I think i'm gonna go read and sleep early.

I have practical tomorrow morning.

Till then, take care loves. :)

2009-05-22T12:07:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Good afternoon! :)

Practical this morning went okay.

I almost passed out in the bus on the way to driving school.

It was one of those dizziness again.

I had my breakfast though.

Maybe it was because the bus was too crowded.

I was early again, so i had enough time to rest.

The weather was hot, but i'm thankful it didn't rain.

Daddy has been working funny shifts lately.

I kinda miss him.

Mummy is excited about her speech and drama class next week.

It's going to be an open class where the parents are allowed to watch.

It's the first time that her students are going to read poetry out loud.

Cute, isn't it!

They're also putting up a play.

How adorable.

I hope i could go and watch.

Natasha got the highest for her food and nutrition,

and she improved tremendously in her maths!

From a D7 to an A2.

I am so proud of her.

Since it's the holidays, i have plenty of time to read.

Back to nareeni the bookworm, just like old times.

I have already re-read The Man Who Loved Clowns by June Rae Wood.

Gosh, it brought me to tears eventhough it's the third time i'm reading it.

Maybe i'll read Nights In Rodanthe by Nicholas Sparks.

Again.

And also PS. I Love You by Cecilia Ahern.

Again.

I think i've got a thing for reading books that i've already read.

Oh. Time for lunch now.

The tummy is growling already.

I can't wait to see haikal the gunduhead later!

Till then, take care. :)

2009-05-21T18:40:00.004+08:00

Kris allen is the american idol!
Gosh i love it when he sings.
Especially his rendition of kanye west's 'heartless'. :)
I'm having my bike practical tomorrow morning and i'm excited!
I'm meeting haikal tomorrow and i'm excited!
That sleepyhead is very busy nowadays.
Well, till then, :)

2009-05-19T23:25:00.003+08:00

Today's outing with sally was indeed fruitful.
Thursday, alright love. ;)
Im excited for tomorrow!
Im bringing falisha adriana out.
I think i'll bring her to the library and read to her.
We'll build sandcastles another day alright.
Rafael is getting better, alhamdulillah.
His appointment with the doctor went well.
He can resume school only on thursday.
I bumped into fadilah today!
See you in school soon, fad!
Till then, :)

2009-05-16T20:15:00.003+08:00

My brother was admitted into the hospital.
He was having fits when he was out with his friends.
I experienced the longest fifteen minutes of my life.
The ambulance took too long.
Watching him foaming and holding tissues to his mouth was never what i had expected.
It worsen when the ambulance finally arrived.
I swear, Rafael, you scared me.
You scared kakak.
I was shaken.
Literally, shaken.
It was at 2am when the doctors said that he was conscious.
His condition stabilised after that.
Alhamdulillah.
Rafael, please don't scare me like that.
I was really scared.
You know how protective i am about my loved ones.
You're my brother and i love you.
I don't want anything to happen to you.

2009-05-12T23:47:00.004+08:00

Anyohaseyo!
I'm bringing falisha to explorer kids tomorrow and im excited!
Wehehe.
Anyway.
Attention.
My aunt needs a few people to paint a mural in her primary school.
Anyone interested?
Please do let me know.
Thank you! :)
The past few days went by really quickly.
It's the holidays already!
Mummy said that we cannot travel this june because rafael's vacation isn't in june. :(
But it's alright, end of the year okay.
Should i work, or volunteer for the singapore arts festival?
Hmm.

2009-05-02T23:36:00.002+08:00

Examinaton Week. :)
4 May: Creative Writing Skills
Arts Awareness (Theatre)
Submit Art History essay
5 May: Jazz Dance (!)
6 May: Fundamental of Lighting and Sound (!)
8 May: Principles of Management (!)
8 May, 12.30pm: Time to par-tay with teddy! :)

It's not how you move, but what moves you.

2009-04-30T00:35:00.002+08:00

Picture of the day.

Haikal, you're very irritating that I feel like gjlbgbnigffgbkl! :D

Wehehehe.

Next week is officially exam week!

Well, I had my sound practical exam and it went quite well, alhamdulillah.

I managed to squeeze in time to watch x-men with haikal!

It was awesome!

I wanna watch angels and demons next.

It looks cool.

I hope my presentation for dance theory goes well later.

And then I can concentrate on writing my art history essay.

I can't wait for jazz dance this saturday!

I feel like it's the only time where I actually loosen up.

Jazz jazz jazz!

I hope I can take it again next semester.
Till then, :)

2009-04-22T22:18:00.000+08:00

My pile of assignments:
Principles of Management.
Show visit report.
Level 1 Project file.
Guest Speaker Series report.
Art History essay.
Ergh. :(

2009-04-21T22:51:00.004+08:00

Today is lovely.
A day out with haikal the gunduhead to the botanical gardens.
He surprised me with ultra-delicious homemade chocolate cake!
No wonder you didn't let me buy chocolates at the supermarket.
Thank you love. :)
We watched 'Eiffel...I'm In Love' on the lappy.
I wanna go to paris.
There were little russian children playing around the tree where we were seating.
They were so cute!
Two of them collected wood and threw it at the tree.
And they hammered the tree with the wood.
Future carpenters. Hehe.
The one with the pacifier is the cutest.
He had a smiley sticker stuck to the back of his shirt.
Ultra cute.
There was also this little girl called Isabelle.
She is five years old.
She got really comfortable with haikal and started tickling him with the flower in her hand.
I so love today.
And and since i complained that my room is warm even when the aircon is on,
haikal got me a blue-mini-aeroplane-shaped-fan!
I love love it!
Thank you haikal.
And yes, the fan certainly reminds me of you. :)

2009-04-17T22:18:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was love.

Seventeen again is awesome!

Oh zac efron is yummy.

The prompt book has been submitted, alhamdulillah.

One down, many many more to go.

Haiyayai.

Oh i can't wait for the holidays.

Mummy, i want to travel please.

Insyallah. :)

2009-04-15T14:22:00.003+08:00

I'm gonna be an earth goddess for angelline's photoshoot!

Nope, im not gonna be a mermaid.

Na-ah.

This gets me really excited.

And seventeen again is getting me excited too!

I know it bugs you haikal but you know i know. ;)

Prompt book is due this friday!

Alhamdulillah that i've completed my dance essay earlier on.

I havent chosen a topic for the art history essay yet.

Hmm.

In sound class today, colin told us about the topics that we need to study for the exam.

My oh my there's a whole lot of topics.

Not only sound, there's lighting too.

Wawa and i sidetracked a little.

We were talking about how we love rain.

Walking in the rain with my umbrella actually liftens my mood.

I love the refreshing smell of rain, i love the smell of freshly-cut grass.

And i love it when i wake up and the sun starts shining on my face.

Aaahh. Dreamy.

The imperfections are the ones that make it all the more perfect.

2009-04-14T19:01:00.004+08:00

Happy belated birthday narin insyirah!

I love love love you.

This chubby sunshine turned sixteen last sunday.

The cake was superbly delicious.

She had been asking for it since last year actually.

Wehehe.

I can't wait to watch seventeen again this thursday!

I can't wait for the holidays too.

Exams are on the 4th, 5th, 6th and 8th may.

I can't wait!

2009-04-10T23:46:00.004+08:00

Today is such a lazy day.
I woke up, had my breakfast and watched tv.
I thought of going cycling, but then it started to rain.
The smell of the rain is wonderful.
It captivates me.
I cleared my drawer and treasure box today.
It had been quite some time since i last went through it.
It made me smile.
Till then, :)

2009-04-08T17:12:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was awesooooome.
I went to watch syf at nus cultural centre with ain, fieqah, mazlan, fad-zil and shafiqah.
Met wawa there too.
Everyone was beautifully-clad, and it reminded me of syf those years ago.
After that, i met up with my gunduhead haikal and it took a looong time to decide what to eat.
We bumped into his friends and i think that it was really funny.
We then went to that new shopping centre in bugis and man, was there a crowd.
It was really crowded cos david archuleta was there!
Im not a huge fan of his, but i think he's cute.
The die-hard fans were screaming like woah.
I almost went deaf.
Afterwards we went to fort canning park and played uno!
Kaiser chiefs had their concert there, so we had free music.
It was a looooong day but i had fun.
It's like when raindrops are falling on your head but it feels so good.
My dear haikal, you made my day. :)

2009-04-06T14:01:00.002+08:00

I swear the movie is so funny!

Worth it, right haikal. ;)

My sunday was awesome.

Minus the bloody cramps.

Grrr.

I am hooked on watching this korean show, foxy lady.

It is great great great. :)

2009-04-04T21:07:00.003+08:00

Hello. :)

I miss working with kids.

Above is my favourite boy, Sean.

It has a been a long week.

Tomorrow is rest day, alhamdulillah.

I have been waiting for sunday.

I felt weak during dance today, but i still went through with it because of my love for it.

It is exactly a month to the start of exams now.

Erghh.

The assignments are piling up like mad.

I feel so lethargic.

I haven't seen my baby falisha for quite some time already.

And ilhan and adelina too.

I can't wait for the holidays to begin.

I need a break.

It is exhausting.

I have been feeling a little damp lately.

I just can't figure out what it is.

My tummy is in a whirlwind.

Oh, please.

2009-03-28T21:10:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow with carl.(:

2009-03-23T22:23:00.006+08:00

Friday nights and Sunday mornings.

2009-03-22T21:00:00.003+08:00

Sentosa outing with my babies today was awesome.

It has been quite some time since we last spent time together.
We went to vivo after that and got some clothes!

The train ride back was such a laugh.

I took a nap when i got home and it felt so goooood.

Guess what i bought yesterday. ;)

Drumrolls please...

Zac Efron socks! :D

Hahahahaha i know.

If only i had bought VH's socks, i could've stuffed her in my shoes.

Hahahahaha.

2009-03-21T01:15:00.009+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FIVE-YEAR BEST FRIEND FIEEEEEEEE!

Chey dah legal or what.

You know i know.

And and and yay i got an A for Kay's project! :)

2009-03-18T16:40:00.000+08:00

Oh i just can't resist this! ;D

2009-03-18T15:26:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NURUL AIN NORAZMAN!

You're legal now!

I love love love you just like my sister. :)

And and haikal's back!

2009-03-17T17:16:00.004+08:00

I think my jack purcell is dirty but i still love it anyways.
Maybe i should get new shoes.
Hmm maybe not.
I did my run this morning in my attempt to keep fit.
Then i craved for ice-cream and i just had to get it.
Well after that i met up with munirah, nisa and fie.
It's been awhile since we last met.
Well not fie, i see her everyday in school.
All the best for your A levels munirah, you can do it!
Which reminds me that i have my lighting exam tomorrow.
Natasha has finally recoverd, alhamdulillah.
My sister has been down with high fever for the past two days.
Now she's hyped enough to entertain me, yay!
I did lots of thinking today.
If i hadn't met certain people, would things still be the same?
If i hadn't made certain decisions, would i be here?
It's one of those thinking days today.
Ultimately, i'm happy with where i am.
Alhamdulillah.
I miss haikal already. :(

2009-03-14T21:30:00.003+08:00

It was a lovely day today.
I went bowlng at downtown east with kakak, abang, brother and my oh-so-chubby-baby niece falisha.
She has four teeth now!
She wants to bite everything she sees, including my fingers.
Sakit tau, tapi macam sedap.
Bowling was fun!
I got second highest.
Wheee.
We had dinner after that, then we walked back to kakak's house.
Home-d afterwards.
Man it's only 9.38pm.
I thought it's late already.
I am craving for chocolate fudge cake, donuts and hot fudge sundae.
Gaaaaah.
I want i want.
Fruits dipped in chocolate sounds good too.
Oh i'm hungry again.
Maybe i'll pester daddy to get ice-cream at east coast drive-thru.
I miss my nutcase sister, she's camping in school this weekend.
I miss the gunduhead too, he's off to malacca.
Okay i wanna go get ice-cream now! :))

2009-03-07T23:15:00.004+08:00

I know, I know, it's been awhile.

I was busy meeting deadlines!

It's almost the end of the first week of term break now.

I've been in school every other day.

Gosh.

I like today though, cos I have jazz dance!

I finally kinda got the routine already.

Alhamdulillah.

Not many turned up today.

May was missing in action, Sabrina was on mc,

and Gayle and Victoria are in malaysia on a school trip.

Funny, the rest of us dont get to go anywhere!

It was a nice workout today.

When I was in the shower room, I overheard the little ballerinas' conversation.

I swear, they are so naive.

They look so cute in their little leotards and buns.

As I was walking in the rain, I realised that my umbrella has five tiny holes in it.

Hahahahaha.

I know, gundu right.

I realised that I keep spending my money on food.

And I keep having this craving for ice-cream.

Especially on oreo mcflurry.

Wooo.

Remember girls, when we used to eat brownies and ice-cream at Pluck every fridays last semester and check out that american-chinese guy and look out the window and camwhore and talk about anything and everything on earth?

I miss that.

I think I want to start on a business.

I want to sell ice-cream, waffles, brownies and cookies.

And hot chocolate.

Yummy yum yum.

I feel like going cycling tomorrow, but it's the rainy season.

Hmm.

I wanna see stars.

Till then, :)

2009-02-17T16:49:00.000+08:00

I had practical today.
I fell off the bike thrice.
:p

2009-02-08T20:13:00.001+08:00

My right eye is smaller than my left eye.
Hmm.

2009-02-01T21:19:00.006+08:00

I know I'm annoying.

Hahahahaha.

I love haikal suhaimi. :)

2009-01-22T23:31:00.004+08:00

I am contented with myself, though I feel a little nauseous.
I donated blood today!
I feel a great sense of satisfaction.
I am proud to be a blood donor. :)
Also, I signed up for jazz dance already!
I can't wait for saturday now.
Hurry hurry.
Inkheart with all the SAs was fun!
Oh and did I mention that the assignments are piling up like a huge mountain of chocolates?
Oh yea it is.
Erghh.
Oh please save me from this thing called school.
(Even though I think I secretly like it)
And now I have to get back to researching on Renaissance art.
Bummer.

2009-01-17T21:56:00.003+08:00

It's the first week of school and all I can say is: exhausting!
Yes, the assignments are piling up.
The nafa open house has been a successful one and I am glad I helped out with it.
I can find my way around school confidently now.
Wehehe.
The best part is that I made new friends!
I have to say that I am getting more interested in theatre.
Oh and and and, I am so going to take jazz dance as an elective next semester!
The class that I watched today got me all excited.
I miss nusrah.
Please get well soon love.
Oh ya yesterday was great-grandma's birthday!
She turned 85.
Woooah. I just realised that alternate monday's class lasts for only an hour.
Wasted trip to school or whaaaaat.
Haiyayai.
Oh and haikal ah, I miss you leh.

2009-01-13T01:04:00.004+08:00

Hello sally you look lost.

Hehehe.

It was the first day of school yesterday and I was all excited!

The lecture was draggy.

Erghh.

Amy Winehouse sat beside me and she kept me entertained.

Tuesday is no-school day for me.

Yay!

Which is why I'm still up at 1.07am.

Haikal is getting more annoying.

He's getting better at it.

Erghh. :S

2009-01-06T01:47:00.002+08:00

Nareeni the penakut called ain up.
Hahahahaha.
Thank you baby.
I realised that tampines library is quieter than the one in pasir ris.
Sitting at the stadium makes me want to run again.
Looking at the moon makes me want to reach out and touch it.
Walking with him feels like I'm walking on air.
Listening to natasha feels like I'm listening to myself.
Watching the birds fly makes me wish that I can do the same.
Looking into his eyes makes me want to fly up high into the sky.

2009-01-05T01:51:00.003+08:00

I am now a year older.
It freaks me.
This year, I have three cakes.
Chocolate fudge from the parents, black forest from the boyfriend and strawberry cheesecake from the uncle.
Ooooh, love.
The celebration started the day before my birthday.
I went to east coast park with the family.
Mummy was so cute, she decorated the tree with banners and whatnot.
It was sweet of the uncles and aunties to be there with me.
The wind was awesome that night.
On the birthday, haikal surprised me by showing up at the void deck.
It was very sweet of you, you gundu.
Bedtime Stories was a laugh.
The singapore river cruise was beautiful.
When I got back, another cake was waiting for me in the refrigerator.
Wooo.
A very big thank you to everyone who wished me.
Thank you thank you thank you for remembering. :)
I love you-s.
My conclusion, a birthday well-spent with the loved ones.
Thank you.

Now, my license. ;)

2009-01-02T00:11:00.002+08:00

The past year was bittersweet.

Goodbye, 2008.

Hello 2009!

Happy New Year everyone!

It's a beautiful start to a new year with the gunduhead. :)

I love the way the fireworks make my heart beat faster than it usually would.

Or maybe...

It just thrills me.

Above is my chubby little niece, Falisha Adriana.

Kakak and abang raised her well.

She's so cute I feel like biting her.

Grrr.

I need to get an organizer!

And a new diary.

I am running out of pages to jot down my extremely mundane life.

I have eyebags and I look like a panda.

Now now, till sunday.

With love, ;)

2008-12-27T00:45:00.001+08:00

When I'm about to feel that everything falls into place, a thought starts pondering in my head.
I want to feel good, but my heart just wouldn't cooperate.
I can't help but feel a tiny bit uncertain.
The sister and the cousin are my entertainers for today.
Everyday, actually.
I wouldn't actually tell them, but I love them to tiny bits and pieces.
We're going shopping.
Mummy wants new clothes for next year, and I want a dress.
Which reminds me, the birthday is getting closer. ;)
I have to admit that I can't wait for school to reopen on the 12th.
I miss the nafa crowd quite badly already.
Quick january, quick.
I have been sneezing quite a lot these past few days.
I refuse to admit that I am sick.
No, I am not sick.
I have to say, watching three movies back to back by myself with ice-cream topped with chocolate syrup in my bowl is quite satisfying.
However, I don't think that my body reacted well to that.
I find myself falling asleep about 3am everyday.
Thank you, gunduhead, I enjoy it.
I love having honeystars with milk for breakfast.
Watching the stars float in my bowl is quite hypnotizing.
I want to go star-gazing.
I used to be very interested in astronomy when I was young.
Watching the stars and the moon fascinates me.
My tresses needs trimming.
I think I have split ends. Erghh.
Mummy is getting more hi-tech.
I nearly choked on my apple when she came back from work with her earpiece in her ears.
Like, whaaaaat.
I swear, I was impressed.
I noticed that daddy has been quite jolly nowadays.
I also noticed that I do take after mummy and daddy after all.
I am blessed to have them both as my parents.
I am growing, but I still want to squeeze in between them on the bed when I feel like my world is crashing down on me.
I think this is the longest post ever.

2008-12-23T22:59:00.005+08:00

At last, it's almost 2009.
Time has passed really quickly for me.
Before you know it, another day has already begun.
Tomorrow is mummy and daddy's wedding anniversary.
It amazes me how they can be so loving till this very day.
I totally adore the both of them, though it may be cringing at times.
I have finally accepted the fact that my sister is a nutcase and that she almost look like me.
Almost.
Nonetheless, I love her so much. :)

2008-12-17T20:07:00.002+08:00

You are always a call away. :)

2008-12-15T14:56:00.002+08:00

It's 20 more days to my birthday and I'm legal.

I miss you you you.

2008-12-04T23:51:00.004+08:00

It's 7 days to the Bali trip.

It's 31 days to my birthday.

I want a white dress and a grey hoodie and shoes.

With ribbons, pockets and buttons, please.

2008-11-25T01:56:00.004+08:00

I went jogging with mummy this morning.

I am going jogging again tomorrow morning.

Insyallah.

I feel healthy.

Ialways do when I exercise.

Truth is, I just started.

Hahaha.

Well.

I went to the library yesterday and I borrowed a book on Bali!

I so can't wait!

2008-11-23T20:50:00.005+08:00

The past few days had been a blur to me.
I feel weak.
I find myself staring at nothing and dozing off eventually.
I miss my babies.
Gosh I am used to seeing them almost everyday.
I feel like I need to get out.
I have cooped up in my room for far too long.
I want to run, but my tummy still hurts.
Well.
I wish something would happen.

2008-01-06T20:11:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I just hate what I know.
It simply kills me inside.
I've been thinking about alot of things lately and my head is a bit of a muddle.
It's hard to grasp things and keep them firmly in your grip because quicker than you know it,
they slide right through your fingers and you lose control.
Everything is spinning around me.
I just feel like screaming "STOP!"
I can run and run as fast and as far as I like but the truth is,
wherever I run,
here I am.

2008-01-06T20:11:00.002+08:00

It's a new day now.

2007-10-17T19:31:00.000+08:00

selamat hari raya aidilfitri. :)

it's the o' levels phy/chem practical tomorrow.
it's also graduation day.
i cant wait. :)

2007-10-10T16:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, RAFAEL!
my brother turns sixteen today.
I'm buying him a huge cupcake with a candle.
and batteries.
cos he always ask me for batteries. (:

IMM.

2007-10-04T20:34:00.001+08:00

It's my birthday in three months from today.

I'm turning seventeen. ;D

2007-09-29T21:45:00.000+08:00

the N levels starts on Monday.

Mazlan, Fieqah, Faisal and Ainy.

and Rafael, too.

and the rest of the N level candidates.

you can do it.

GOOD LUCK, LOVES. ;)

2007-09-23T22:15:00.000+08:00

it's a hectic weekend with the family + work.

grrr.

thank you, love. :)

2007-09-21T23:44:00.000+08:00

I'm blissfully happy.

I have three words for the day.

I love today! :D

2007-09-19T22:27:00.000+08:00

Joy.
It's Mika-inspired. ;)

2007-09-18T21:43:00.000+08:00

I've gotten back some of my papers.
my prelim results prove to me that whenever I try so hard, my dreams are shattered into tiny little pieces.
sometimes I wish I'm as smart as them.
most of the time I wish I'm as smart as them.
all of the time I wish I'm as smart as them.
my results make me wanna try so much harder, I've got four more weeks to the o's.
FOUR MORE WEEKS, AND IT'S THE O'S.
and rafael, you're not making things any easier for me at home.
yes, I love you like any sister would love her brother, which I would never admit in a gazillion years, but sometimes I wish that you'll understand me.
and I'm not one of your guy friends.
god, I'm your sister.
and all I want from you is a little respect, and maybe some appreciation.
that's not much to ask for, is it?
at this point of time, I need your help to get me through this.
the both of us are having major exams.
we can pull through this together.
we're supposed to be twins, right?
well, supposed to, anyway.
so, please, do me a favor.
make me smile, not curse you under my breath, okay?

2007-09-15T23:16:00.000+08:00

today was fun fun fun!
it's been a looong time since i went out.
we headed to far east plaza.
the tempat makan upstairs was fully booked.
next time, come at 5pm, kate makcik.
so we buke-ed at long john.
met zul there.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
hahaha.
I didn't finish my food today cos I was full.
maybe it's cos of the kurma I ate for sahor.
I'm saving up,
so I can buy clothes!
I have my eye on a few apparels, yes hudaa. ;)
prelims gonna end soon.
I'm scared about my results.
improved? failed?
gosh. these thoughts are killing me.
well, I'll find out on tuesday.
oh gosh.

2007-09-14T12:30:00.000+08:00

my loves.

we'll buke together soon, okay? (:

It's friday!

and yes, I'm left with chemistry and art on monday.

can't wait to get it over and done with.

daddy told me something yesterday.

he has diabetes.

and I found out that diabetes can cause serious health complications including heart disease, blindness, kidney failure and lower-extremity amputations.

and diabetes is the sixth leading cause of death in the United States.

does it make a difference if we're in Singapore?

gosh. oh, daddy.

you better be careful.

well.

I was thinking about this on the way home.

If I were to have another name, it'll be Annie!

that's because great-grandma keeps going, "An-nie! An-nie! Matikan kipas! Sejuk lar."

hahahahaha.

okay. It's raining heavily now and I feel like

DANCING IN THE RAIN!

ooh yeaa.

or maybe I'll just curl up in bed.

goodbye loves. (:

ILM.

2007-09-09T01:04:00.000+08:00

It's the prelims next week.

I'm gonna go on hiatus.

for the 10 september babies, happy birthday!

namely mummy, nuzzzy and haikal.

have a wonderful sweet sixteen!

(not you, mummy!)

and happy birthday, maknye hudaa!

it's marked in my organiser!

hahaha okay.

see you soon, loves. ;)

2007-09-07T17:35:00.000+08:00

great-grandma asked, "Kau nak kahwin orang boyan?"

hahahahaha. :)

2007-09-06T19:10:00.000+08:00

I think that maybe, i'm growing more eccentric every day.
A moment ago, my idiotically crossed eyes were gawping at Lya, vaguely focusing on her collar.
Lya's my rabbit, by the way.
When I squeezed my fuzzy eyeballs together,all the jewel-coloured diamantes on her collar looked blurrily beautiful, like some lights on a spaceship, hovering in the moonlight...
hey, that was pretty poetic. hahahahaha.
or maybe it sounds like the rantings of a nutter, I don't know, you decide.
y'know, when you cross your eyes, things look really different.
(Including you, it makes you look like a down-right idiot.)
HAHAHAHAHA.
okay rubbish.
well.
Ignoring the fact that I had just eaten a bar of snickers, I'm still hungry.
I find that I'm going hungry more frequently nowadays.
and I consume lots of junk food.
lots of them.
well, maybe it's my hormones.
hahahahaha. okay rubbish.
I don't know whether it's because of the weather, or it's just me.
I think it's just me.
sheesh.
I'm gonna end here now.
I have nothing else to say.
goodbye for now, loves. :D

2007-09-05T00:36:00.000+08:00

i think i have the worst case of sunburns ever.
oh my gosh.
i get shocked when i walk by a mirror,
and i realised, it's my face. guffaws.
okay i was dreaming of getting a car, and i want it in yellow, red or hot pink.
then i thought of stealing barbie's car.
i mean, she's so lucky. she has everything.
everything.
i envy her.
okay, random.
i'm craving for a pure chocolate from coffeebean.
mmm.
NOW.(:

2007-09-02T12:44:00.000+08:00

you can't miss that pink shoe. (:

2007-08-31T16:17:00.000+08:00

kiss kiss, bang bang.
it's not a wonderful day, but i had fun.
lethargy is taking over me.
i think im going to bed.
good night loves.

2007-08-30T19:04:00.000+08:00

good evening loves.
three trophies = happiness.
woohoohoo. :)
i'm so excited for tomorrow's sports day at ccab.
i cant wait to play frisbee!
and that aces day workout, kental = fun.
i love mika, lar. :)

wanna dance in the rain with me?

2007-08-23T17:15:00.000+08:00

ooh im lovin' it. (:

2007-06-30T16:26:00.002+08:00

kakak, kakak.
you're getting married.
im ecstatic.
you'll be the most beautiful bride ever, even though the bridal people kinda suck.
insyaallah, everything will go as planned.
don't worry too much.
remember, i love you. (:

2007-06-30T16:26:00.000+08:00

the dream.

we held hands while crossing the street.

oh, love.

2007-06-25T10:34:00.000+08:00

hello loves.

this is what happened when i was four.
mummy: what do you want to be when you grow up?
nareeni: i want to be a mango seller at orchard road.

the cheek of it.
:D

2007-06-04T14:18:00.000+08:00

hello loves.
i have a new bed sheet!
i love love love it.
:D

2007-06-03T00:14:00.000+08:00

"Good things come to those who wait," said nie.

2007-05-12T20:13:00.001+08:00

I love atok.

Hello loves.
Exams are over.
Yet, I don't feel like it is.
Well, mainly cos the o isn't over yet.
Gosh.
I'm so afraid to get my results for the mid-years.
I'm terrified.
I think I did quite badly.
Like, really really.
Sometimes I feel like I'm falling in the ocean.
Save me.

2007-04-14T22:02:00.000+08:00

hello loves.

im sick.

ergh.

fever,cough and flu.

sheesh.

im gonna watch a movie with my family tonight.

using the projector.

i hope it's a walk to remember.

then i can cry together with mummy. (:

hope i get well soon.

till then,

goodnight prettyheads. (:

2007-04-08T14:44:00.000+08:00

hello loves.
mummy dearest has made a decision.
no more cable tv and internet connection.
oh well.
i guess it's for my own good.
it's the o's this year.
sigh.
i miss disney channel.
and mtv. and discovery travel & living.
star world, too.
on friday, we celebrated the oh-so-loved-by-me-hudaa's birthday.
im glad that she's happy wih the surprise mr.highguy. (:
well yesterday i went to sentosa with my family.
i wanted to watch a walk to remember on channel 5 at 7.30pm.
but damn it i didnt get to watch it cos of my star karat aunts and families.
but it was all fun though, despite the long wait.
mummy promised me that she'll find the dvd for me.
she said she feels bad.
well, good. so then i can watch it over and over again and then cry to myself.
i feel tired these days.
terribly exhausted.
mummy says i don't look happy and excited and noisy anymore.
she said that im gloomy.
well, i feel like it.
it feels like there's a dark cloud glooming over me.
and it's following me wherever i go.
and it makes the floodgates open, if you know what i mean.
sometimes i feel sorry for myself.
i feel like i just wanna hide myself away from the world.
away from the monsters in my dreams that seem to be seeking me.
away from everything. absolutely everything.

i just wish for you to be happy.

2007-03-18T12:55:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to nurul ain! ((:
my dear ahhyin turns sixteen today.
wheee!
may all your wshes and dreams come true. (:

yesterday was a day out with the schoolmates without fie and sal.
nevertheless, it was all fun.
it started out with only ain and me.
we went to watch my cousin ira perform at bugis junction.
her's was one of the intervals.
and i like her schoolmate. hahaha.
and afterwards the all boys dancing competition started.
it was awesome.
then we met mazlan and rezal.
i like the juying sec's performance.
it was so semangat soy.
we didnt stay for long, though.
and cousin ira told me that juying sec won.
and the best dancer was from that school whose name is alief and is woohoo.
okay.
then the four of us headed to marina square.
a-w-k-w-a-r-d.
lan and rezal ate there while the two of us took our own sweet time in the toilet.
hohoho.
then we went to suntec and my legs were killing me.
walked around and then met ainy at city hall.
then we headed to far east plaza to meet huda and fieqah.
they ate, and we headed to esplanade then.
ainy met saturday guy, but huda didnt meet mr high guy.
took lots and lotsa pictures.
i was really exhausted.

my dear putri, we will all pray for your recovery.
dont cry, i feel like crying too.
i miss you very much.
always stopping by huda's and my table cos your bored.
and two weeks is not long.
very soon, you'll be back in school like always, okay? (:

2007-03-16T15:58:00.000+08:00

olalalala, pretty people!
yes yes yes.
the computer's okay now.
my brother is a genius.
the schoolmates is love.
and so is mr. suspenders. :)

2007-03-09T11:45:00.000+08:00

olala.
oh how i miss typing away at the computer.
my monitor's spoilt.
damn it.
im currently using the compy in the school library.
and i swear the nyonya librarian suck big time.
sheesh.
but on the bright side of having the monitor spoilt, im finally doing my homework.
hahaha.
okay okay.
i cant wait for tomorrow's karya at yew tee cc.
the schoolmates-full squad!
yea yea yeah.
and i havent decided what to wear.
oh shucks.
and there's three birthdays around the corner.
ain, fie and lan.
watch out!
hohoho.
okay best.
it's the hols next week, but it doesnt feel like it.
school every single day.
sheesh.
not surprising though, as o-level's this year for me.
gosh, im so scared.
shithead.
well well well.
today is such a breezy day.
cool eh.
and and, lily allen's my idol.
and and, adam brody is love!
those who agree with me, scream!
yes yes yes.
hahaha.
okay merepek.
im light-headed.
yeap yeap.
well prettyheads, till next time.
lots of love,
♥ninnies rainbow. :)

2007-02-04T21:42:00.000+08:00

ola.
today is a day out with fifi, lan, huda, fieqah, rezal and ainy.
went to national library to see the aksara exhibition.
cikgu mesti proud of us.
hahaha.
after that we went to far east plaza to eat.
then ainy came and met us from work.
after that we walked around, then home sweet home.
tengok bola with family.
nampaknye, s'pore macam menang gitu.
hahaha.
*kiss thumb* yes!
and yesterday, went to tampines library with ainy, lan and rezal.
hey diddle diddle!
hahaha.
sit sit, take pictures, eat, and then home sweet home.
okay macam lapar pulak now.
till then,
toodles. :)

2007-02-02T22:24:00.000+08:00

I said maybe,
You're gonna be the one that saves me.
And after all,
You're my wonderwall. (:

2007-02-01T20:29:00.000+08:00

ola!
yesterday's soccer match was fun.
watched it at the stadium with lan, fifi, faz, ainy and rezal.
kecoh seh!
okay so it was really crowded.
and actually, im not even interested, but so what.
okay fun fun fun.
but i got bored sometimes cos i dont get the game.
i just saw little people running after a ball.
haha.
reached home at 12 am and went straight to bed.
prett prett, prett prett prett, prett prett prett prett, b*t*!
ass on fire! ass on fire!
okay diam. (:
i was really sleepy today.
lack of sleep i guess.
didnt go for english ssp today.
took a nap at fifi's house.
then go for ml.
the song is cool.
very very.
cool lar!
makes me wanna shake my butt. (:
hahaha.
okay im tired.
and sleepy.
i wanna try to sleep early tonight.
and yay it's friday tomorrow!
till then,
toodles. :)

2007-01-28T18:54:00.000+08:00

im on cloud nine. (:

2007-01-27T23:37:00.000+08:00

singapore won. (;

2007-01-27T17:43:00.000+08:00

ola!
ooh yeaa yeaa yeaa.
mummy has bought the plug at last.
it took her 11 days to get it.
hahaha.
okay best.
it's saturday and im bored.
ergh.
kakak's coming over tonight.
ooh yeaa.
okay.
im a happy happy happy girl now. (:
till then,
toodles. :)

2007-01-24T21:11:00.000+08:00

ola.
today is a fun and tiring day!
had p.e. today.
hahaha.
penipu. (:
okay so after school the siti nuruls went to banquet at cp.
kill time man!
okay sp it was fun.
took our time and thank god we weren't late for combined science ssp.
so im in the same group as ain since our class got split into two.
it was fun.
share some more stories okay ain. (:
so after that watch a little bit of soccer.
haha.
then go meet lan and faz with fie.
i accompanied lan to the doctor's.
walauwe both eyes sore eyes.
like a vampire.
hohoho.
after that hang out a bit and we all go home!
and now my tummy's grumbling.
till then,
toodles. :)

2007-01-23T22:23:00.000+08:00

ola.
well the day went okay as usual.
and huda, the river ends at the bottom of the map!
hahaha.
i find it really funny.
had ml training today.
amer came and visited us.
how nice.
and our kakaks gonna get married on the same day!
hahaha.
07.07.07. (:
so after training, went home.
took a shower.
like woah seh.
okay after that my 4-year-old cousin adelina came.
and her little brother ilhan is soo cute.
he can walk steadily now!
walauwe so cute lar ergh.
so geram with his cheeks.
sheesh.
okay then.
till then,
toodles. :)

2007-01-22T16:39:00.000+08:00

ola!
okay okay i've never updated cos my plug in the room has exploded.
the one where i use to plug in the computer plugs.
yeaa.
hahahahaha.
so im just relying on my cousin'a laptop then.
hohoho.
okay so i gotta wait for it to be fixed.
till then,
toodles.:)

2007-01-16T19:29:00.000+08:00

ola.
today's just another day at school.
school's a drag.
as always.
i woke myself up and dragged my sleepy self to school.
assembly at the parade square today.
it's the first sunny morning of the week.
no rain. bummer.
lessons were as usual.
had a boring assembly.
that slenger pendek hui si kept falling asleep in front of huda.
she was like moving from left to right to front but not back.
hahahahaha.
we were trying hard to laugh silently.
hahahahaha.
after assembly there was humanities ssp.
social studies test.
after that went for ml training.
after training it's home sweet home.
gosh, i feel like a robot.
and now i need to go to the library to return my books which are due today.
ergh. i actually forgot about it.
oh well.
till then,
toodles. :)

2007-01-15T19:11:00.000+08:00

ola.
it's a fine day today.
no assembly at the parade square again due to wet grounds.
phew. im lovin it.
had a maths test today on cfc.
i didnt complete the last part of the question.
sheesh.
the day seems kinda gloomy.
oh well.
after school, went to compass point with fie, lan and ainy.
lunched at banquet.
then we headed to the library.
i continued with my reading.
im so engrossed with it.
totally.
after awhile faisal joined us.
and rezal joined us too.
after a long time in the library, we decided to get out of there.
it was too cold.
went to kfc, got lots of extra food.
hahaha.
after eating, it's home sweet home.
im gonna watch so yout think you can dance tonight.
yeaa.
then i will do my homework.
okay. yes.
and im left with four chapters!
yea yea yea.
till then,
toodles. :)

2007-01-14T15:12:00.000+08:00

ola!
what a lazy lazy day.
im lovin the rain.
every drop of it.
so yesterday i was engrossed in reading my book when fie and lan and faz wanna go out.
well, it was 5.45pm.
hahaha. wow.
mummy let me go out in the end though.
hahaha. yay!
so i met up wif mazlan at hougang interchange.
we then made our way to esplanade to meet fie and fazli.
met them there, then me and lan went to marina square to eat.
afterwards, met up with fie and faz again.
then we sat there and played chopsticks.
after that we played scissors paper stone.
the one where we have to hit the loser's hand.
and sakit tau org tu hit my hand!
okay so after that it started to drizzle.
so we decided to make our way home.
and anyway, it was almost 10pm already.
we reached sengkang around 10.40pm.
said good-bye to fie and fazli then.
lan accompanied me at the bus stop, then off home.
reached home about 11.15pm.
hahaha.
mummy asked, "why are you late?"
then i smiled at her.
then she said, "aiyo, you uh. go and bathe lar."
heehe.
good mummy.
love her to bits and pieces.
so today, continued reading my storybook.
im left with another 12 chapters!
yea yea yea.
im so engrossed in it.
well, the rain doesnt seem to be stopping.
gosh im so lovin the weather!
and mummy's baking cookies!
oooh loveee.
till then,
toodles. :)

2007-01-12T21:21:00.000+08:00

ola.
it's a rainy friday and im lovin every moment of it!
except that it's really cold and i cant help but shiver.
so i can say that it's a short day today.
less lessons.
cos it's friday.
ooh yeaa i love fridays.
had january babies' celebration after school today.
there's five of us who are born in january.
and im certainly one of them!
so we blew the candles, ate our cake, gotten our presents, and we were off.
i got an eye shadow stick!
i like it i like it.
so it's tag war between mldds and hockey.
and against MY BESTIE.
no one insults my best girlfriend in the whole wide world and get away with it.
im not happy with it, but im glad fie's having fun with it.
im entertained with the names people use when they tag.
hahahahaha.
it's so lame, i gotta laugh my ass off.
sheesh.
i hope those people will own up soon.
so we can all make this world a better place and spread the loveee yaww. ((:
so back to my day,
we hang out after school.
yeaa. cool weather, cool atmosphere.
loveee it.
im halfway through my book now.
im so engrossed with it.
yea yea yea!
off home sweet home at about 6.45pm.
had belajar ugama.
i guess im gonna sleep soon while the rain is pouring.
yea yea yea!
till then,
toodles. :)

2007-01-11T21:19:00.000+08:00

ola.
good evening everyone.
i had cramps today and it hurt like hell.
serious shite.
so lessons were okay, then rested during the last two periods.
went to dreamland.
so i had training today.
it seems like it's beginning to pressure us.
it's an emotional training for us today.
most of us were on the verge of tearing up.
even cikgu.
but my dear ml darlings, dont take it too hard okay.
we'll just do the best that we can.
whatever it is, we'll do it all together.
do the best that we can.
and ahhyin darling, i love you, we all love you.
so dont take it too hard okay.
hug hug tomorrow!
till then,
toodles. :)

2007-01-10T20:33:00.000+08:00

hello everyone.
school's okay today.
just the same like any other weekday.
after school went to fieqah's hotel with the schoolmates.
waah! tv besar seh!
im so jealous. i wish i have one at home.
and fieqah, i like the flowers and butterflies hanging in your room.
nice seh!
so we stayed there and watched movies.
cicakman merepek!
watched till i got bored of it.
then we changed to night at the museum.
and fieqah cooked mi goreng for us.
and maggi.
cos we were all hungry.
hahaha.
then i fell asleep on the sofa.
then i moved to her room.
and slept while the rest went home.
woke up at 5.45pm, and watched tv.
left with me, lan, fai and fieqah.
haha. duh lar her house what.
watched tv and fieqah goreng-ed for us fish burger.
then watched tv again.
till her mum got back home from work.
so after eating, we made a move.
went home.
im really tired.
and sleepy.
but i have homeworks to do.
sigh. i think im getting used to this kind of everyday work.
i really want to do well for my o's.
im scared. very scared.
sometimes i feel like i cant do it.
and i feel like i just wanna cry.
and i do.
and after that, i feel pathetic.
sometimes i just feel like i wanna give up.
but i know i shouldnt do that.
i mean, i cant do that.
and it's bugging me all the time.
and im not really happy about it.
and im sad.
till then,
toodles. :)

2007-01-09T21:13:00.000+08:00

come take my hand and bring me to wonderland.

2007-01-09T19:00:00.000+08:00

ola.
school's okay today.
i actually concentrated and do my work.
sigh.
but i still look out the window though.
waiting for my prince charming to save me from my piling textbooks and bring me to wonderland.
sigh.
im trying to concentrate on my studies. focus.
it's not fun.
but my mind keeps drifting off somewhere else.
somewhere it shouldnt be.
sigh.
i need a week of holiday eh, fie.
or maybe three weeks would be nice.
i need to go to disneyland and have fun. pronto.
till then,
toodles. :)

2007-01-08T18:40:00.000+08:00

ola.
i can say that today is a sleepy day.
sigh.
we broke up at 12.45am.
im glad he's not so fucked up about it.
so back to school, the bus was late.
thank god i wasnt a latecomer.
i used my new school bag today.
i like it alot.
thanks kakak for the bag,
and thanks tasha for the heart keychain.
and the five dollars.
and i've been eyeing that bag anyway.
im lovin it.
heheh.
lessons was okay, but i didnt understand a few things.
so a visit to fieqah's house is postponed to wednesday.
yay. extra classes doesnt start till next week.
im not really ready to embrace it.
sheesh.
so went back home today and took a long nap.
i wanted to turn on the computer but i was too sleepy.
i think i have a few homeworks.
sigh.
i think i got to complete it now.
training's tomorrow.
no chance of going home first.
sigh.
till then,
toodles. :)

2007-01-07T19:18:00.000+08:00

ola.
today i went to a relative's wedding.
i went with jeans and a blouse.
hahahahaha.
i had no intention of getting out of the car, actually.
but oh well, daddy insisted.
haiyaa.
after that daddy dropped me, natasha and cousin ira at tampines mall.
i wanted to exchange the buy kakak bought for me.
cos it looks almost the same as natasha's bag and ira's bag.
just a different colour.
so i took this black billabong bag with a tree printed on it.
haha. i got it at last.
i've been eyeing that bag for quite a long time, actually.
a got a waterbottle too cos there was an excess of ten dollars.
i top up about two bucks only.
then we headed to delifrance and grabbed a bite.
had that tuna delipotato.
didnt finish it, as usual. haiyaa.
tasha bought for me a red heart shaped key chain!
im so happy cos i wanted that.
hahaha.
and she gave me five bucks too cos she said she didnt know what else to buy for me.
haha. sweet lar tasha.
then, off home.

yesterday.
met fie at compass point at 12, supposedly.
but i came late.
then we waited for amer cos he wanted to give me something.
i was about to call him when he came.
i was surprised with the something that he gave me.
it was a cake which he made for me.
a chocolate brownie cake i suppose.
i was speechless. hahaha.
and ys, it was freaking delicious.
me and fie was staring at it like woah.
then we decided to dig in.
hahahahaha.
and im proud to say that i ate the n a r e e n i cupcakes.
yeap. i ate all seven by myself.
hahahahaha.
and now i wanna say thank you amer!
and yes, your cake is delicious.
after that, yadayadayada.
hang out with hasif and friends while fie went home and met up with lan.
met up with the both of them at night pulak at esplanade.
then we hang out at the roof terrace.
spent a long time there.
then around 9.30pm, time to go home.
made our back.
had lots and lots of laughter.
laughed till my tummy hurts.
hahahahaha.
i was late.
curfew was at 8pm.
hahaha.
i reached home at 11.15pm.
surprisingly, mummy wasnt angry.
phew.
i took a bath then.
hahaha.
oh well.
need to do my homework now.
ergh.
till then,
toodles. :)